By Ruth Bowser
While visiting my daughter and son in law and their newborn in Pittsburgh recently, Rick and I took Milan, our 2 year old grandson to an indoor bouncy house playground. The playground was packed with a ton of families and kids, many of them attending birthday parties. Milan ran from one slide to another and we could hardly keep up with him. He slowed down only once when he saw a boy get a big ball out of a machine. Milan then without hesitation went up to the boy and cupped his hands upward as if asking the boy to give him the ball. He let his desire made known. It was precious.
I think that most of us live lives running from one thing to the next, much like Milan. Emilie Griffin says, “We think our lives are full, but we’re deluding ourselves. The fullness is just an overburdened, complicated life.” We would love to stop the treadmill but we don’t know what would be on the other side of our fast pace.
What captured my attention with Milan is that he would have run past the boy with the ball had he not stopped. And when he stopped what surfaced was his desire to have a ball and a willingness to express that desire. When we stop running our longings will begin to surface.
When was the last time you were in touch with your longings? Longing for wholeness, healing, love, peace and for more of God than you have right now? Bartimeaus recognized his desire and cried out to Jesus above the noise of the crowd for mercy. David lived authentically before the Lord and often showered God with all kinds of emotions. Hannah poured out her soul to the Lord about her infertility. There is something so wonderfully right about expressing our hearts desires to God without editing them. Raw. Real. Authentic. That’s the kind of relationship God wants us to have with him.
Next time you stop, pay attention to what is rising up inside of you. Simply bring it before Jesus. Then in a small surrender, lift up your hands to him and allow Him to satisfy your desires.